Thursday, February 11, 2010

Incomplete 27 Murdered in Love 20

"The sin that is committed by killing one who does not deserve is as great a sin of NOT killing the one who deserves to be......Bhagwad GITA". Sin is only a mistake committed by a misunderstood "individual ego" against its own Divine Nature.

Sharada' birthday, and an alien body of 47 days. Fear, image, future, everything seemed to collapse on her face. Nobody was to be blamed; not even the foetus. She just didnt want to talk about it to anyone but then it was inevitable. Clandestinity in a realtionship just tears one apart, she could not confide to anyone. And if she did, then she would retrieve it back. An indication to Anirudh, broke him & he went into silence. Between them there were only precautions and no promises or plans. Celebrate or do what?, a day to be remembered, horrifying was her birthday. Anirudh was awake all night beside her; and Sharada mourned to take a decision. A fibred rod entered her and dissolved something born; may be a boy or girl.

It is cruel to even scribe, sin is the word. She kept her promise to the one who had not promised anything.

The year ended peacefully only to unfold and end. Anirudh was waiting for an opportunity, and now it was Sharada's turn to get erroneous. Hormonal changes in the body started working on Sharada. Literal imbalances, fear of rejection, mistrust, insecurity, infringement, imposing, and get worried for nothing, fights; anger - all together played the worse. Continuously for a month they had fights, over everything. Like all, said all, Sharada accused Anirudh of using her emotionally, physically and financially. She walked out on him slapping him hard, not once but many times. Eighteen days of test; Anirudh never came back. Sharada begged him, but then theories are only one sided. Cursed was she, another exile but this time there was no hope.

The relationship came out in the open first to her closest friends and her other friends and many other friends. She spoke to some and some spoke to other some. But then nothing could be done to save or take the relationship forward. Some wanted Sharada to sue him, some forgive, some reasoned that it was her mistake, some reasoned that he was immature, some were critical, some were compassionate, some angry, some cried with her. It affected many and most of all Sharada herself.

Away from everyone and everything, Sharada completely contaminated started her cleansing process.

1 comment:

  1. //"The sin that is committed by killing one who does not deserve is as great a sin of NOT killing the one who deserves to be......Bhagwad GITA".//..But IPC and CrPC feel otherwise. A murder is a murder, but whether it is amounting to culpable homicide or not amounting is the only concern of our law. If Gita is taken as IPC, India's population wll be dramatically reduced by half...

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